another month over

this is getting quite boring, what with having nothing to write here i feel terrible just updating these posts with plain 'nothingness'.

i'm such a twi-hard. there, i said it. i love the twilight saga and in fact i cannot wait till the last part comes out next year. i had quite a twilight-y day - playing music from the films and just re-watching breaking dawn! what a day. teachers were on strike today so i joined the twihards. ha.

tomorrow. well, i have to go to a school to TEACH (!) in the morning. woopee! will be up bright and early, i'll see MrL go to work (for a change) and at 4pm i have a school to visit. busy day tomorrow.

my eyes are in pain, i've just had the lenses changed and obviously my eyesight has gotten worse. so from -0.75 i've gone to -1.75. it's taking some getting used to. but i can no SEE :D yay.

hope you're all having a great week

M
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hard work

who would have thought filling out teaching applications would be so tedious and so loooong! omg. i've been doing these forms since july, you'd think 5 months later it would be a a bit easier.. NO. believe me, every school is different and so are their requirements. you have to adjust your personal statement to the school's ethos and vision. every application form differs. it's such hard work.

today i managed to do two applications and i am drained. i stood up and i could barely stand, i felt so dizzy and tired. or maybe it's just me? maybe i put too much effort into these applications? maybe? but i'm trying my hardest to finally shine through as much as i can so that the schools take me up for an interview.

if someone asked what i did today and all i said was - filled in two applications, they'd think i haven't done much, but quite honestly, i've done loads. and not matter what people say or think, i have done a lot today.

i want to teach already!!

M
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woman on a mission

for the first time in ages, i stepped out into town. amazing, huh?
no, didn't think so. but unfortunately that's how exciting my life is at the moment.
i look forward to the day when i read back on all these posts from this year and be so happy it's all behind me. fingers crossed the new year will bring me better luck.

i had an important interview. next one is on thursday.
as i was out, i decided to pop into some shops. i roamed around new look, topshop, h&m, debenhams and river island. i found one cardigan i would have liked. now, yesterday, i moaned on twitter that i wish someone would take me out shopping. to be honest, i didn't feel wowed by anything really, which was quite surprising. i thought i'd want to buy everything in the shops, but i didn't! and i'm quite happy about it, otherwise i'd be here now moaning i had money ;) hah.

what i did realize, was that i miss walking down streets filled with shops. i miss london. i miss the hustle and  bustle, the variety, the enormousness, the never-ending options. five shops in the town i live in now doesn't really compete at all with the thousands of london. i'm bored and yet there is nothing to do here. hence, i need to get out more, i need to do something. i've called up two schools for voluntary work, i have to wait for a response, obviously, both schools stated that they already have quite a few volunteers (ie. they don't need any more). one more school to apply for a teaching position. i really hope something comes out of this. i need it to.

M
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i just had to!

sometimes, i get this feeling that i just have to do something. and that happened to me just a moment ago.

prawn sandwiches. need i say more? now, i'd defrosted the prawns for a rice dinner, but instead, i had this uncontrollable urge to have a prawn sandwich instead. i know, not much of a dinner, but boy did i enjoy it!

yum!!

absolutely bored stiff today, incredible how terrible weather can make you feel so blah!

let's hope this week is more eventful and filled with healthier food choices.

M
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foggy much?

woke up this morning, peered out from underneath the duvet and saw a very milky sky. no surprise, i didn't want to get out of bed really.

not having anything to do today, i whipped out my camera and snapped up a few shots of the fog

view from front door, usually can see the hills from here! not today

MrL had bought some lovely and very unusual flowers form my bday and they look fantastic on our dining table

Brassica oleracea, white crane and purple crane

i think they look gorgeous! especially interwoven with the lilies, i love them! they have lasted so long.

well, that's it folks for today's post, nothing special. just trying to get my xmas shopping list up to scratch and shall start buying presents soon! can't wait for xams this year - at home, with my family.

M
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car mantra

i have to say, the highlight of today was my driving lesson.
i've been stuck at home on my own again and having done some housework this morning, my driving instructor called round in the afternoon and took me to redcar in my car.

it's not far. but it was busy. and i had some stupid jinx on me and i stalled a trillion times on one roundabout :D i had the person behind me get to the stage that he had to overtake me. man, i was horrendous. it just gets to me, once i stall once and then a second time..THAT'S IT. i'll keep on stalling! i haven't stalled in ages. and i didn't understand why all of a sudden i stalled today? i guess i just get too panicky and flustered, there was a queue behind me and it was quite a busy roundabout, so i had to go. ugh. what a nightmare.
but driving around redcar was nice - i do like to be beside the seaside! so, as my title indicates - i had a quick mantra "i am calm and i can do this" in my head as i set off every time. it helped. luckily!!

on another note, i need  new glasses. my eyesight is so crap. it's not good when i'm driving around. i can hardly read signs etc :/ shall have to ask MrL for a deposit for an eye test and new lenses!! i can't drive not seeing properly. would like to have laser treatment really. i wish i could see clearly :D

anyone have any interesting plans for the weekend?

M
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writer's block

i can't really complain about writer's block really when in fact it is half way gone november and i had done so many things!

- Anna's 30th bday was a total BLAST! i had so much fun at her pool party and generally enjoyed my long weekend in cambridge
- watched fantastic fireworks and drank mulled wine by the river Cam, on a boat with a log burner that Anna's friend lives in (not in the burner, but in the boat-doh!)
- copious amounts of driving lessons (two very bad ones but recently, i've been getting better)
- in fact, MrL has been taking me out a LOT recently, anywhere we need to go he makes me go
- going down to MrL's mum's to help her move out of her old flat into her new house
- literally ripping my nails in order to shorten them (i had no scissors or nail file) somehow, i managed to keep them looking good, however they are dramatically shorter now :(
- lovely dinner with friends
- my bday - had a lovely day filled with presents, flowers, chocolates and MrL's family
- i PASSED my car theory test!!!
- applied for two more teaching posts, after having failed to be successful at another teaching interview
- listened to some good tunes which i'm sure everyone know by now, in particular Coldplay, Birdy and Lana Del Rey
- booked tickets to poland for xmas and am so excited!!
- MrL is growing his moustache for Movember (link!)
- making a list of xmas presents that i would love to get (but somehow i get the sinking feeling that money will not allow me to get half of what i;d like to get)

that's about it. doesn't seem like much when it's all in a list but i feel like i've done a lot (compared to all this time since july...) i'm glad it's been a bit busier than usual. it takes my mind off the more brutal things in life.

unfortunately i deleted everything off my camera's memory card and only have taken pics of MrL's mum's cat!

i hope you're all having a great november

M
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