another sunny day

sat here in 'the office' trying to sneak in some time for myself and the internet, catch up on my life and gmail chat to my dad, before my boss gets back (which could be anytime soon..) while in the room next door a bunch of kids (6 of them, to be exact) sit trembling, hands shaking, minds working like clock work, writing their exams...

and my boss came in and i finish this post at home.

so..it's such a hectic time for me.. work work work like NEVER before and i'm starting to HATE it. my life has become a boring monotony of school-pub-(not enough) sleep-school-pub-(not enough) sleep... i ask myself why i do this.. and the answer is plain and simple: money. i haven't got much in my account, to be honest it's pathetic, but how else would i survive? what i do in the pub pays solely for my rent, the rest (school cash) i spend on food and other womanly needs (i.e. an occasional splash-out on clothes/shoes/drinks..). i thought i'd be better off but as life shows, i'm NOT. i'm constantly tired, fed up, yet i always manage to slap on a smile behind the bar. i have to. it's so sad. i'd rather yell at everyone and tell them to f-off cos i wanna go to bed. i'm over the pub work. i'm over working at two places. but it has to be done. 12 more weeks... just 12 more weeks left of this craziness... please keep me sane guys! give me some love!!

xoxo

up north where the sun don't shine

i'm spending my half-term at L's place. it just seemed to be the best thing to do. don't get me wrong, it is! BUT, where the heck is the sun?! it always seems to miss the north :( i hear (rather see) from friends' status's that it's oh so nice in london, why can't i get some sun-rays huh?

besides that, any time i go on the computer, i have to listen to the silence. i have no idea what L has done but there is no sound whatsoever when i go on the comp. so no itunes, no youtube, no nothing. just the clicking of the keys on the keyboard.

L is at work. that sucks. however, we had a wonderful easter weekend, spent it at his dad's and managed not to get into the hot-tub ;) as L is at work i have all the time in the world to catch up online, read my books and (drum roll) play on the Wii !! i can't believe we got it! it's the best thing ever :) we did it at the spur of the moment. we were heading back home from our saturday shopping spree for baby lily and we decided, what the hell, let's get a Wii. so we did. a black one! i've spent hours on it already, it's so enthralling. once you start you can't stop. it's made our evenings so much fun ;)

as for buying the Wii, we have now had to knuckle down and not spend any more. i've even made up a list of things we need to save up for..we'll see how well we stick to that!

just 4 more days and it'll be time for london again :( full-time work in the pub as i'm a little short on cash at the moment (thanks to school for not paying me during breaks, ugh). back to the daily grind of work. i'm shocked that time has flown by so fast. it's already nearing the end-of-school year! amazing! and uni seems to be lurking from round the corner - yikes!

xoxo