sirens, alerts, red lamps..

'virgin' on the loose.

i feel 'like a virgin'. although i haven't been touched by anyone in what... 9 months?! geez, that's long enough to have given birth and gotten pregnant again (well, nearly..). maaaan. i've been watching way too much sex and the city + a fair share of desperate housewives. that's all i've been doing these past few days - catching up on tv series. how sad. but thanks to them, i've come to realise what i'm missing out on. it didn't really bother me until someone decided to tell me about their "fabulous weekend aaaaaaand - it was just the beginning!!!!" [scream]. mhh.
and then came the tv shows and there i was on my couch thinking - i'm 24.. and i need a man. well, a man with a working penis would be great. but it's not just about the sex. it's about the quality time spent talking and laughing. i miss all of that. i'm scared i'm missing out on too much at my age. i should be out there, having fun, enjoying myself, going to parties and making out with whoever is handsome enough and maybe even having sex every night would be a bonus.
but no.
why cant i be a free soul in london [new york would do me fine too!]?
it seems so strange for me - those 9 months [wow, i cant even believe its been so long..sniff]. that's the longest i haven't slept with a guy since i was 19. can you imagine what's it's like for me? ever since i was 19 i've always had someone. and now? payback time? did i do something wrong? maybe it's because i'm here and my man is somewhere 'out there' in the BIG WORLD. i need my holiday. and God.. please make it worth while!



hopin.. and prayin, and hopin, and prayin...

boys may come and boys may go, but girlfriends are forever

and so i went to see sex and the city.. many of you may think i'm crazy but hell yeah - it was good stuff, i absolutely loved every single second of it. i wish i could go again, however my funds are nonexistent so i shall have to make do with all that i've got. but it's so true that boys [men in some cases] come and go, but girlfriends always stay. i have in mind two most important girls in my life and i hope that some day we'll be like satc women!

it all made me, for some reason, crave going to new york. i really would like to go there for at least 6 months. agata, we have to figure something out and go! and i'm not taking no for an answer! but wouldnt it be all the more fun having so much money and dressing up in prada and gucci... oh well. maybe some day...

enjoy the summer sun lads and ladettes.
i need a tan.

dr feelgood

from today, ca 12pm, i am finally living my summer. had my last exam during this academic year. woot woot. i put on the worst tights made on earth - no lycra and the top had no elastic band, so you can imagine..i had them constantly falling down to my thighs all day long..ugh..couldn't wait to get out of them ;]

oh bliss at last. SUMMER ladies and gentlemen, s u m m e r !

all this time i was waiting..its finally here. from tomorrow - drinking starts! ha.
for now, its time for bed an a huuuuge lie in tomorrow.. this is insane, it feels so unreal.. someone pinch me, is it really summer?!





yay!

craptacular

craptacular is how today goes by.
not only did our course teacher tell us we sucked in our use of english part, the listening today wasnt at all easy. i got mixed feelings and it aint good at all. i just want tomorrow to be over, get my grade (find out i passed would be enough), go home, kick off my shoes and laze about for the rest of my summer days. i'm so tired of this session..

i'm actually quite grateful that i'm flying out in july and not right after my finals..at least this way i'll have a few extra days to do nothing and take advantage of the fact that its summer and not run like mad all around the pub, collecting plates, glasses or standing behind the bar, pulling pints and smiling from ear to ear, pretending that my feet dont hurt at all.... ahh.. summer awaits!

hopefully i will shed some kilos too.

for now, i'm off to drink my (belated) five o'clock tea. ta-ta.

like a virgin

if you've no idea what i'm on about, go figure. or ask dvd.

good day today. slowly coming to an end, summer is closing in on us at such a speed its overwhelming! have i said - i cannot wait!!!

just two more days to go, fingers crossed the listening exam will be a piece of cake.



still when i'm a mess, i still put on a vest
with an S on my chest
oh yes, i'm a superwoman
yes i am

roll on the practical english exam

i'm ready baby.
even though i didnt learn much - i'm ready as i'll ever be!
i've set my mood to 'good' so you better not spoil it you stupid exam or else i'll rip your little paper body apart and throw you in the bin! and then i'll complain to your makers what a decent piece of rubbish they made of you!

i have absolutely no intention of being scared of you.
in fact, i'm going to treat you like a piece of calorie-free cake.

mmm.

am i going mad?
i think i'm just tired.

night all.

(watch me brandish that exam.. rendering it helpless..in lieu of it making me squirm and be put on the brink of sanity, i will not have a memory like a sieve tomorrow, i will extenuate that exam, i will distinguish myself in the battle of the third year's practical exam. i have no other option but to pass. you, dear exam, are in serious risk of being written all over by my pen. i will relish these moment dearly. and once i'm done, i will not tolerate peoples woes and mourning. i will be forgone that all people will have a smile on their face and we will adjourn and go home in peace.)

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

listen real hard if you'd like to hear, and watch real close or i'll disappear

here i am sitting over 50 pages worth of words, phrasal verbs, idioms, proverbs and whatnot.
it's the third time i'll be writing this exam. and to tell you the truth - today i'm pretty pissed off about it. they wouldn't let me off the hook and had to put me through the traumatic time of session, maybe before i never worried about my practical exam, and to be frank i'm not really peeing my pants just yet. but tomorrow, when we'll be in the hall, sitting at our desks, my heart will be racing.
i'm so fed up that even though i passed my previous two exams (of the same damn thing) i have to write it AGAIN.

i'm in such a bad mood today.
i hate these papers. i hate these words. i'll use them as scrap paper once i'm done. and to make things worse - i've got my period, so expect me to be snappy. i didnt go to the gym today, i couldnt be bothered to lift a finger.

i'm going to be sinful and make myself a cup of coffee now, thats all i'm yearning. i shall even embellish it with some frothy milk. mmm.

oh, andy's back in my life. we had a bit of a break up for no reason.
i like writing to him. funny how he manages to make smile even though we're so far apart and have never seen each other in real life.

i heard from my girl magda, she's in st ives already and i'll be joining her on 9th july. i cannot wait. summer's nearly here guys... nearly!

just wishing for some sun though..

sprechen sie deutsch?

i've been living, dreaming, eating, sleeping and generally living my end of course assessment for the past couple of days. that is why my posts have been so scarce recently. for example today i had 12 full hours of german, from 12-24. but how much will i remember? i am amazed and a little scared that it's the end of the year..

few exams coming up this week. keep your fingers crossed.

it'll be back to the grindstone tomorrow though.

i suspect that a quick shower and sleep is the most sensible option right now.

cheerio.

loving it

my hair obviously! i cannot imagine how i could tell you how it feels.. on one hand it's so strange and my two years of growing out my hair has gone, but on the other hand, it's so light, new and fresh. i love it. the biggest thanks goes out to my hairdresser.

this week has been flying by so quickly it's astonishing. already it's wednesday.. thursday i've got an exam friday and then two more exams and it's all done and over. wow. i stopped counting the days till i leave as i've come to the point that i'm starting to want more days ;) i'm not sure i'm ready to go to work again for the summer in the pub, it really aint that easy and carefree as some people would think it is. its hard work.

stomach's been getting worse again. i should change my diet. i want more exercise. but first i need to concentrate on my diet and help out my poor stomach.

i need a tan too. that's for sure.

flowerbed of destiny

"Sarah" Declan O'Rourke

i had an amazing day yesterday. could not have been any better :] i was practically out all day.

thanks to randy andy i've found a new love - declan o'rourke.. amazing singer songwriter from dublin. totally hooked on his music at the moment. for the first time, i heard the script played on the radio today - i was so so shocked!

i wonder what tomorrow will bring? last week of classes.. its so hard to believe..its all gone so quickly. i still remember the first time i stepped into the room of group 2a and was wondering what kind of people i'll meet. i was, of course, pleasantly surprised. of all the groups i've encountered, i can frankly say that this group is the best in all ways.

anyhow, i need sleep and i need a new stomach.
help.