i dont want to go into details of all the how's and what's in my life right now, but one thing is clear, i am feeling a lot of positive energy from people all over. i nearly fell for one yesterday. whenever i talk to D i have butterflies and then i have L who is constantly in touch with me..
i'm scared i will have to choose, that i'll have to pick one out of the two and i wish there was a logical or rational way of doing it but i'm afraid it will be one of the most difficult personal decisions i'll have to make.
i wanted to list pros for D and for L but that would be too schemed out..and rather tragic if they ever happened to stumble upon my rather not so discrete blog.
thus, i'm meeting D next week..wow..sounds so surreal yet it is true.. deep down i wish he were completely different, that he weren't so damn hot, charming, shy, loveable, ambitious, riding a motorbike, becoming a chef kind of guy and that we will not get along and THEN my choice will be so much easier.. somehow i wish i could choose L, because i know so little about him, he lives so far away and i wish i could give him a chance. but it's not like that. he's too far away. and D, well, we seem to be getting along too well...
i can't wait till next friday.
on another note, my weight loss is going superb :) makes me even more happier. but i think it's having a horrendous effect on my concentration and motivation which is seriously not good as its that time of year at college where i should be studying hard and getting work done pronto!
i need to breathe a bit.
