i'm sick and tired

of your attitude.

i'm becoming independent and strong as i know some of you have been trying to convince me that now it is time for me and i think i've finally come round to seeing that.

thanks to montse, i've come to realise that i need to respect myself.
there have been so many days where i would just break down and cry, write texts to G and hope for better days which never came.. it was a vicious cycle that i'm happy to have jumped out of.
this song completely expresses everything that i've been going through recently..i need to focus on myself, on college and on finishing my BA

besides that i have finally become aware of how many friends i have around me.. the ones who i thought were closest to me are not here and i've started trusting people who are so far away. the ones who haven't ever seen me or heard my voice are the ones who know the most about me. maybe that way i feel safer as they dont judge byt my appearance and everyday behaviour.. it just seems so much easier.

i want to start over, start all over again, a fresh new start, maybe this summer in england wherever i will be, i just hope i can forget enough to be with people who truly care for me and who will be by my side like true friends should do.

i also wish i could go to london this may, maybe i will :)