had a blast

it seems like forever since i last drank any alcoholic beverage whatsoever and i tell you guys, it was oh so refreshing and joyous to drink a few GnT's last night with an amazing friend and her hubby-to-be plus their incredibly gorgeous and scrumptious lil kitty (aka mirabelka). once we sat down in the bedroom we stayed there and they did a great job of getting me quite tipsy.. which i was totally fine with :D i talked too much and i felt too much at home! i let the troubles of everyday leave me for those few hours and it felt SO DAMN GOOD.

ania - you're a star and i absolutely love you for being here with (and for) me. we didn't talk too much about G (which i'm rather happy about ;)) but we should really do that again someday when we both have time :) maybe with ania m and any other girls that wouldn't mind our company ;)! we really should consider it!

i only just got down to college work. it suddenly dawned on me that there's only one more month left of college and it has started to freak me out :/ it's so scary to think that these what-were-meant-to-be-three-but-turned-out-5 years of college are abruptly coming to a definite end and i'm freaking out as to what will be..

as for mystery guy L, has been simply adorable texting like crazy. i've gone over my monthly amount by 50zl which wasn't at the slightest difficult to accomplish. i'm very fond of him and i'm sure we'd surely make a funny pair. him being quite the hottie army lad and i the humble and shy country lass.. but both sharing a multitude of things in common and both so eagerly wanting to see each other but both knowing it would be silly to do so ;)

mystery guy M has been awfully quite recently, only writing once a week but his use of words is uttertly impressive for a guy at the handsome age of 25. he's a busy man with good looks - if only he would smile a bit more :) i'd fall for his charm. there's something about him that makes him so desirable.

mystery guy D is a primary school sweetheart who once was someone i was afraid of, he was "in the crowd" and i wasn't..i never was in primary school, i was the tall shy one who never attempted to be an 'it' girl. i was afraid of 'powerful' people, not to mention the guys who were top of the list at school. but now, being all grown up and me actualy looking decent :p and having gained a tiny weeny bit of self-confidence, i've begun to realise that life is full of risks and i's not worth sitting quiet in the corner as you won't get anything done in life. i'm not someone who is overly eccentric, rather the opposite but with a healthy dose of courage when needed. i talked to D yesterday after having realised that he is going through a hrad time in his life..i tried to be there for him, show him some encouragement that the hurt will pass with time, but i'm not promising that it'll be easy.. it was a lovely lil chat. he's such a handsome man, he's hot and he knows it :D and good for him! i'm sure he'll soon get a girl, no woman would say no to his looks! i know i wouldn't ;)

mystery guy C i don't quite like to be honest so he's off the list.

mystery guy A has been on and off.. def not someone i can depend on.. but its nice to hear from him and what he's up to. i've learnt my lesson not to trust irish lads. so he's crossed off the list but always up for a chat with him anytime.

that's it when it comes to mystery guys.. as for the not-so-mystery guy G, hm, i miss him, yes, i do.. but i think i've stopped loving him. it's taken me so long to get over it all but i think i've got to the top of the hill and now it's all downhill and hopefully there'll be a comfy fall down at the bottom as i get on my arse and slide down! it will be a long ride down, that i know but i am willing to go down and no longer up. i'm hoping this is it! i think it is :)

if it wasn't for all you lovely people, friends and aquaintances i wouldn't have got to the place where i am right now. so thank you all for being there for me and cheering me on, hoping for the best to come. it's taken me so long to see that this world is full of people who sincerely care for me and want me to be happy!

i love you all guys