glee addict...

i absolutely loved this weeks glee...the songs were so damn good!! absolutely stunning renditions of some true classics, and the whole theme of 'prom' me like-y :) go watch if you haven't yet!

ok guys, i'm on twitter and have been for a ridiculous amount of time so get your butt on the move and get yourself over there (@omasia) start tweeting twitteristas!

also, tomorrow (or rather today) i'm going on a trip with my class and i have the nicest group to work with - so happy :) i really love the kids i'm working with - such a joy! i think i love this whole teaching job ;)

i can't sleep.
i slept too much in the afternoon.
ah well...

i love Lewis. just thought i'd say that out loud. ha. i wonder if he'll ever read this (even if it is in 10 years time...)

xoxo

saturday musings

i woke up and saw what a beautiful day it was, so i decided there was no way i was going to stay at home all day. i went out. to oxford street.

~ clinique superfine eyebrow pencil - check
~ h&m shoes and handbag - check
~ zara red shopper handbag - check
~ starbucks mocha frappucino - check!

what a day :)

xoxo

drunkenness on a friday night

never thought i'd get so drunk after school on 3 cocktails. jeez. horrible horrible stuff!! i had to go to bed when i got home to sober up! tragic.

did my planning today with my teacher breathing down my neck - so so stressful :/ but it's done. i have so much to do for next week! better start planning my sessions tomorrow!

boring-weekend-ahead alert.

xoxo

tired.

school is really tiring me out. i even napped today, straight after school from about 7-11. how awesome is that. now i'm awake and i can finish off my planning for tomorrow. worse thing is, i have to spend tomorrow morning planning the whole of next week which i've never done before and i will have my teacher breathing down my neck overlooking my planning skills. how stressful. not looking forward to it at all.

i will really try and get my session planning done this weekend so i can chill out a bit more during the week. i know it's such a crap way of spending my weekend, but i'd rather that than have to do all of it all week.

i can't wait to go up north for half-term.

letting off some bloody steam...

i guess being annoyed is what you get when you live in shared accommodation. i know i'd be a complete dunce if i started taking my bread and jam into my room. but leaving it out in the kitchen, on my shelf, obviously does not keep away other people's hands. to the point - i have no bread for tomorrow's lunch. someone has been helping themselves to my bread. i'm peed off. it's annoying that i now have to buy lunch tomorrow in a silly corner shop (which tastes naff) but what can you do apart from slamming the fridge door and whacking plates about and cursing under my nose. that's me - just not bloody bold enough to tell someone that i'm pissed off because they've taken my food. is it just me, or is it really normal for people who have known each other for a few months to just 'help themselves' to anything in the kitchen, even when they know i am a bit anal about my things. i don't like people thinking 'what's mine is yours'.

i guess i'll get over it by tomorrow evening.

i guess i'll just put up with it, seeing that i won't be here and won't have to deal with these things after mid-july.

it's just that i'm working so frigging hard, i have hardly any time to do much and i just like things to GO MY WAY.


am i overreacting? dramatizing the whole situation? i'm not sure anymore.



on a brighter note: i had a WONDERFUL day today! brilliant lessons (maths and science) got my marking done and planning all up to date (still!) i'm so impressed with myself - i'm doing ok with all this work. yes, it's time-consuming and i get tired, but i'm giving it my all. and it seems to be paying off!

tomorrow, however, i KNOW i will have a crappy PE session and prob an even worse literacy lesson (poetry.....with year 1. imagine that :/...)

fingers crossed i get through tomorrow.

and that i get over my food snatchers.

xoxo

sunday shopper

after working hard all day on saturday making resources for my maths sessions this week, i decided to treat myself today. what better way than with a bit of retail therapy!

i was intending on leaving at 11 to be at the shops for 12..well, knowing me, i made it for a disappointing 2pm.. and i headed to the MAC store on church street and i bought my first ever product - the studio finish concealer! yay! i haven't used it yet, however i did test it out in the store and it cover my blemish on my hand so i think i'll be pretty satisfied with this product, definitely happy that i got this. i then strolled over to h&m and exchanged a pair of shorts that i had bought a few weeks ago..i had to get a size 14 ;) now now, i haven't gotten 'bigger' i just prefer my shorts to be a bit looser on me. i also grabbed a lovely little beach dress (very see-through) which will come in handy when i go on my holiday to greece (a girl can dream, right?). lastly, i snatched up a cute little skirt that tpuches my knees (very important when working as a teacher) it's striped with yellow, red and blue horizontal stripes. so pretty!

i went to boots and nearly got Cliniques' All About Eyes cream. however, i changed my mind just in time! £21 seemed a little overpriced. instead i headed towards the skincare section and picked up the garnier tinted roll-on for under the eyes and a day eye cream (2 for £12 - bargain!) and no, i didn't get origins vitazing either.. i still have 3/4 left of my Clinique moisturiser, so i'm totally ok with that!

i have so much work for this week!!! never thought teaching was so stressful and time consuming :( but it's all worth it in the end. two more weeks till half-term, two more weeks till half-term....

xoxo

limbo much?

i definitely feel like i've been in limbo since easter really, spending all my time going over school stuff, mainly planning and making resources for the week..every day i come back tired and sleepy, but i have to plan plan plan and make resources all the time so my teaching is better than ever ;)

last week, i must admit, was pretty rough. it started on wednesday at noon straight after my supervising tutor from uni observed my maths lesson - i got so nauseous! i felt horrendous! twice during the rest of the afternoon i felt like i was going to barf all over. but, luckily, i didn't! i'm not sure if any of you are aware that something like this exists but i am terrified of getting sick (also known as emetophobia). this continued on thursday too.. i was shaking and feeling hot and dizzy, my stomach was killing me. i was starting to freak out somewhat. and i decided to not eat proper food just toast, totally cleanse my system. i felt great on friday, hardly any pain. today, i felt a bit weird in the morning but that may have been due to the lack of energy (i may have been feeling a bit hungry at this point). i had toast this morning (with jam, i couldn't resist!) and felt ok, so i had 2 slices of toast with jam for lunch and dinner ;)! i'm feeling good. hopefully, i'll start eating more normal foods tomorrow...and my stomach won't go mental on me again....

i'm going shopping tomorrow. i NEED a moisturiser, so i'm getting Origins Vitazing. i also need a concealer - so i'm going for MAC's Studio Finish concealer. and the last thing on my list is an eye cream - Clinique's All About Eyes is my choice. a splurge i know. my student pocket WILL feel this shopping spree. but these are things that i will NOT regret buying. and they will last me quite some time.

hope you're all good xoxo

p.s. i'm dying to get chanel matt lumiere foundation :( maybe someday.......

spoiling myself rotten

i had a file check today so i was at uni and not school (yay for another 3 day week!!) but it's so hard getting back into the swing of things (is working)., i;ve become so lazy with all this free time..ever since we went on easter break it feels like it's been constantly holidays. now it's all coming to an end..

after my (successful) file check, i had to take a ride to west brompton to get a prescription. i found out from the very kind and chatty receptionist that there are now squatters in the pub ;) how nice! i made my way to kensington and stopped over at a starbucks...and i had a rall mocha frappucino WITH cream! wow, it's so delicious! i'm terrible..i should really stay away from starbucks, i mean, i shouldn't even be drinking coffee. which is why, as of tomorrow, i will drink water instead of coffee. i will allow myself to have one coffee a day at school but other than that, i'm saying "NO" to coffee.

i spent just over £13 on two books that i can read to my kids at year 1. insane. i originally picked up three but when i got to the counter and the lady said £22..i literally told her "i'm sorry, i can't do that, i have to put one away..". i had also asked her if they do student discounts, to which i got a negative reply, so i HAD to let go of one book. it's so annoying. things are so expensive here and i'm not getting any money into my account! it would be nice to have a job. i miss having 'pay day'.

i should be sleeping by now as i have an early start tomorrow... but i'm not feeling so great. lewis would laugh and say 'when are you well?!' it's true, my health has been dramatically declining over the past year, ever time i've been to his, i've ALWAYS been ill. i was considering buying seven seas cod liver oil today - i absolutely HATE the stuff but i know it would be good for me...i just couldn't yet make myself get it.. i'm not ready! but i need to start doing something, i can't be constantly ill.. it's no fun, and the school won't find it fun either if i start being ill all the time, no school will like it... as of tomorrow, i need to start taking some sort of supplements. i need to get better, i need to be healthy.

hope everyone is well..
xoxo

loooooooooooong weekend...

as everyone on the planet knows, friday in the uk was a day off (thanks to will and kate! - thanking you!). what a wonderful day it was..i spent it watching the coverage on my laptop from 9am. everything was so beautiful. what a wonderful dress had on, i just loved it. absolutely stunning. will looked rather handsome too if i may say so myself! so i spent the day literally 'oohing' and 'ahhing' over kate and will's wedding. what a fairytale.

i want to be a princess too!!

i did manage to go shopping on friday too. i had to. unfortunately. i have no appropriate clothes for the school i'm at now, so called 'smart casual' but more on the smart side, so it's totally smart. so off to h&m i went. i'm lacking in the money department hence h&m and not zara or topshop :( on saturday i went to high street ken, to further my shopping experience at h&m. i wondered around the streets and reminisced about the past. helped myself to a starbucks mocha frappucino and made my way back home.

today i intended on going to westminster abbey and enjoy the evensong mass they had at 3pm but when i got there, the 2 mile long queue to get inside made me turn back and head for camden instead! i browsed the shops of camden trying to find some inspiration for a bday present (it's lewis' 27th on sat..) but to no avail. still trying to figure out what to get him. i wonder if i'll be able to go to his on saturday at all what with all the work i have for school...

tomorrow, again, it's a day off 'bank holiday monday' and i have no idea what to do with myself! i might head out to town again and go to a park and drink some pimms? no one seems to be willing to go with me which is a shame but i guess everyone else is busy. so i'll go on my own.

xoxo

absolute NOM.

what more can i say but ryan gosling.
ever since i saw him in the notebook i went mad and got hold of all the films he played in. and now i came across his new film: crazy stupid love. so without further ado..have a look at this!

absolute beauty. love it. love him! L has something about him that reminds me of ryan gosling - woop woop!! lucky me!

a treat!

yesterday i treated myself to my se1 school! it was so joyous going back to all the kiddies - they really did miss me! i had kids at my feet and pulling me in all directions to show me what they've been up to. it was so lovely to see them - i have missed them. two little girls even made me a card each ;) it's so nice to know that you mean something to kids. i even got asked by a little girl "can i be your bridesmaid"which made me smile - how thoughtful! :D i just love working with little people. i think reception is my fav class to teach and be around with. i shall go and visit them more often!

today i had a day off, however, i didn't do much only because i was stressed out with finding out that i will be ofsted'ed during se2..and i had to get my se1 file in by friday :/ i have to do so much to get it ready - i'd taken it apart really, for my essays and simply because i wasn't pleased with the last week i'd taught - oops....

later on in the day, well at midday, i decided that my room needs to be rearranged so that if i do ever have a leak again, it won't go on my bed. it took me hours to shift my furniture and at 3 i gave up - i just had too much furniture in my room and i couldn't turn my bed around to where i really wanted it. so i waited till my flatmate got back home and we lifted the couch up and out of the way :) and now my room is ready... (check later to see a pic of my room!)

that's all for now...uni all day tomorrow and friday..and then it's all over. no more uni, just school...how scary!!

xoxo

i've fallen into the oblivion of american series..

i watched 22 episodes of pretty little liars in 4 days.
i'm always on track with the new glee episodes.
i've always watched desperate housewives, brothers and sisters, gossip girl, family guy... i mean - do i REALLY need to watch all these programs?? no. but i'm bloody enjoying it!! haha.

i had a lovely weekend.. went out on sunday to leicester square and made my way to shaftesbury avenue and chinatown, where i had a scrumptious dinner! new world is a restaurant i will recommend to everyone who is in town. it was a bit weird, i must admit, sitting on my own and having dinner ON MY OWN with tables full of families and couples all around! it was fun though! ordered way too much for myself.. came out looking pregnant ;)

again, today i experienced a leak from the ceiling. i came back home for my lunch break aaand sat down on my bed and felt it was a 'bit' wet. i hit the phone and called my landlord who didn't reply till 9pm. he arranged the plumber to come round tomorrow and 'sort it out'. i'm so pissed off you have NO idea. i'm going to Citizen's Advice Bureau on wednesday so i might get some help with my room and my rights.

wish me luck!

xoxo

rags to riches

i'm really looking forward to finishing my course in july..i'm also getting a bit worried about having to move to MrL's...for good! no going back ;) no more return tickets to london...just his place and we've got to make it work!
i'm worried about it all..i'm scared of getting on his nerves too much and he'll get angry with me, you know what it's like when you're with someone but you can always 'go back to yours'..i will no longer have that option. i'm over the moon to think that i will be with L all the time and be with him whilst working and waiting for him with dinner ;) but i'm just a little worried (in the back of my mind) that we will find it hard to 'get used to each other'... but most of all, i'm so excited and joyous that i will BE with L. yay!!!

plus i'm worried about my job and whether i'll find one by september :/

on a happy note - i bought some shoes, et voila!

and this...

(it's just a headband ;))

got a LOVELY maxi dress from boohoo.com, unfortunately it's no longer available on the website so i can't get a pic on here but not to worry, i'm sure you'll see a pic of me IN it sooner rather than later!

i really would like to get carolina herrera 212 vip eau de parfum :) might get it...but still not sure...would also like prada original eau de parfum.... i'd love loads of perfumes to be honest!!

xoxo

waiting for easter to come

so i flew out to poland for the weekend and it was lovely!
i got to see my parents and spent time at home - i loved it.
now i'm back and my flattie is still ill and sowing his germs around the house, to which point i have managed to catch it. i went to uni in the morning but after coming back home for lunch i crawled into bed, wrapped myself in my blanket, lemsip in hand, aspirin on the go and tissues on roll. sneezing and coughing has commenced.

i've been trying to get my statement done for schools to go with my CV.. it's not so easy. it's taking me ages to come up with something that is good enough.

on the other hand, i'm totally loving the feeling of not having to write any essays! it feels so weird having so much time on my hands..i actually have time to be in bed and get better! wow...

hope you're all well
xoxo

so maybe that 'flooding' dream was a sign?

my mum was taken to hospital and she had her operation today and it's all fine. my mum is well and she'll be going home tomorrow!! i'm so so happy! and i cannot wait to see them on friday! so glad to hear everything's ok.

i've also rediscovered my old love for ivri lider (a most talented and handsome looking israeli singer-songwriter) it's a shame itunes doesn't have all of his songs :/

on a bad note: what is wrong with some sales-assistants?? i went up to a clinique counter and the stupid (16-18 year old) assistant just TOTALLY blanked me. she went round to the other side and was 'talking business' with an older sales-assistant. so i stood there STARING at them for a good 3 minutes, after which i got pissed off and moved on. a sales-assistant from the clarins counter saw me and the whole situation and she approached me (lovely lady- thank you) and asked me what i was looking for. i told her i wanted to ask about the eye-cream from clinique, to which seh responded that she could go and check for me (bless her - it's totally not her counter) and i just told her that it's the other woman's responsibility and if she can't be bothered that it's their problem.

some people just should not be sales-assistants, not when they have an 'i-can't-be-bothered-to=acknowledge-customers' kind of attitude. boo to you. i shall not be returning to that counter ever again. you're doing yourself such bad publicity and i'm sure there are many women like me who do the same - you just don't go back to places that treated you like crap. full stop. the end.

i've just purchased my ivri lider - off i go to full on sing-along mode :)!! (glad the flat's empty and no-one will hear my awful howling, i mean 'singing' ;))

xoxo

sleepless nights

so i've been having problems with sleeping..
i can't seem to fall asleep at a 'normal' hour.
i've been going to bed between eleven and midnight, and haven't fallen asleep till three, four-ish.
terrible.
and, i had a really weird dream last night about a flood that i kept clearing but it kept coming back..so i looked it up and came across definitions, such as:
"to dream about a gentle flood suggests that your concerns about a particular situation will soon be washed away"
could it really be about my mum? well..i'm not sure whether to believe it or not..? maybe..??

have so much work again this weekend for ICT..was sat at uni today till 7:30pm doing a powerpoint presentation about bees. fun fun fun. just maths tomorrow and the afternoon off so i'll be off to boots to get me some no7 stuff..

xoxo

happy days again :)

i'm coming home next weekend - absolutely thrilled to bits, it has however been triggered by my mother's illness.. she's due to have an operation this week if they have any free spaces. i want to be there for my dad and to make sure my mum's feeling better.

still a bit tied up with uni (ICT presentation for wednesday next week) and essay due in for the friday after that. but then that's my last essay ever (well, unless i fail sth then i'll have to resubmit ;) hopefully that won't happen)

so excited to go home. can't wait to see mum and dad.

xoxo

happiness

firstly, i'm SO happy for getting my maths essay (and all the 'little' bits that went with it) ids done and dusted - handed in and forgotten about! this now means that i now have only one more essay left to write - ICT...and it's for next friday, so soon, all these silly essays will be DONE.

secondly, i've been so motivated by alexis jordan and her song 'happiness' :) since the first time i heard it, it makes me hum along, dance and want to be happy (corny but true). the beat of the song is so invigorating and the general vibe i get from the song is - summer!

alas, i am about to state something that will be a complete contradiction to what my previous post was about - namely, i will be heading to primark (hangs head in shame) i know, i know..i said i would never shop there and i think people who do are silly..BUT i've been looking for a maxi dress since last summer and i cannot find one that is within my price range (i've seen some truly beautiful ones for astronomical prices going into the hundreds..) and one youtuber whom i happened to watch today bought a really pretty, very plain and straightforward maxi dress from the dreaded primarni. so, i will take a shot and go there tomorrow and see if this maxi dress is worth the eleven pound price tag ;)

white will be on my wish list.. very summery..

aside from my essay writing and mini shopping sprees.. i'm falling ill. just a little cold. but my nose is killing me, my body feels rather flimsy and i've been living on lemsip all day, don't have an appetite at all today. and it's all because of marcin and his bloody man-flu. ugh.

good night boys and girls xoxo

fake trash

just a thought that passed my mind while i was on the tube today, going to yet another very mini shopping spree ...

this watch is the fruit of my 'labour'.

anyway, back to the point of my post - fake trash. sometimes, i look at people, and i see fakery all over. fake, cheap and tacky. i know, that it's pricey to get good stuff..but once you do, you have decent, long-lasting things that look good. i used to buy stuff from primark, but i got fed up of having to throw everything away after having worn it once. useless. waste of money, even if it did cost £4. i live on a budget myself and believe you me, i know how hard it is, yet i always manage to get good things once in a while. it feels great to know that i've bought myself three tops that will last me the whole spring and possibly summer (if it's not too hot, which, living in england it won't be ;)).

i'm happy, happy that i'm not wasting my money. i look at some girls and think - that ring/skirt/top/shoes you're wearing will last you only a few weeks. i'll still be wearing my things come the end of summer - it feels good to know that!

all in all, it feels great to shop, doesn't it?

xoxo

back in london (and back to the shops did i go!!)

I had been SO so good in feb and i didn't buy anything for myself (apart from food obviously). sooo as soon as i got back to london, my desire to go to the shops grew stronger by the minute, and so, today, off i went.

i hit zara first - two tops bought, both white - perfect for spring!

then h&m - another white top, a bit like a jumper only with short sleeves

and that was it! enough to satisfy my minor shopping need - DONE.

i've been on a battle front with my landlord - i had a leaking ceiling before i left up north (beg. of feb) and he 'fixed it' and when i got back on sunday last week my bed was SOAKING. so i called him and he didn't answer my calls - he called me the following day at 4pm saying 'oh, that DOES sound urgent'. hm..he got a plumber in for wendesday - very urgent indeed. so i wrote to my landlord (Jaz) that i will not pay him rent for this month until he completely resolves this situation which has been going on for a month, let alone he promised to paint my walls etc - it ain't gonna happen. so he's not getting his rent until he fixes upstairs' bathroom and makes it watertight so i don't have to worry about being bruatlly woken up in the night with water dripping on my face!

ugh. hate.

i'm trying to get some maths done and write my essay for monday - it will be a challenge, possibly the biggest i've had here at uni. really unsure about it :/ 4 days left to write it - i should manage.

mummy's in hospital and i'm praying she gets better and goes home soon.. maybe tomorrow..? they're not sure what was wrong - they're still doing tests on her, poor thing. wish i was there to help, i feel so useless being here and not being able to give my dad a hand :(

apart from that, i guess things are ok.

wish i could go home to poland right now...

xoxo