breathe.
i can't.
i just can't handle it.
i can't bear the thought anymore, that he's out there HAPPY. i can't do it anymore. i can't go on pretending that i'm fine with it. cos i'm fucking well not.
facebook. he just got tagged. with a girl who has a crush on him. well at least she had one when i was with him. and now this..picture. i cant begin to explain how my heart literally JUMPED. my ribs holding it back from exploding.
fuck.
it just pierces my heart a million times in one go.
and i ate way too much today.
i'm such a pig.
and the scales say it all, i gained 2 pounds today and i didnt even have that friggin icecream!!! argh. grr.
come close and i'll bite your bloody head off tonight. i wish i could. or rip your arm out or kick your balls so it hurts like fuck or stab your hand with a knife and twist it round and round. or scratch your chest open and rip out your pounding heart that supposedly loves me.
you're such a laugh you are.
how could i have EVER fallen for you.
i hate myself for falling for you.
not for loving or losing you
but for falling for your EMPTY words
why the fuck did you lead me on?
why did i let my heart listen to you?
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