trying to forget

it's not easy

i've gone back to giving my posts titles. i just wasn't fond of the simplicity and total lack of "chapter and verse". i felt as if my posts were bare, so i'm giving their coats back and hoping that they will be warmer than usual.

it's been a rough time for me, when some days i want to be left alone, expecting no one to give me solace. i needed to be in solitary, just me and my shadow.

but then again today, i was longing to be around people and that's exactly what i got. i had such a lovely coffee with the two most loving and lovable souls. i was so psyched and charged that i traipsed all the way home, stopping by my local drug store only to find that they didn't have what i wanted but that did not stop me from being so chirpy and i carried on singing along to the music coming from my headphones and making my way to my "crash pad" called home.

there's nothing more to say really, only that i thoroughly relished today. i absolutely adore course. i now have a deviation - i check every word fro its synonyms.. oh dear lord.. you can see i am truly spiritless.


wait..
not only am i spiritless but also extremely bummed out, aghast and insipid, exceptionally sluggish at everything i do. in fact, i yearn to hibernate for a couple of months.


oh oh, going back to course, i have a horrible secret.. videlicet: a week ago, i'm not sure if any of you will remember, but seńor Swarmork slipped on a brick coloured tight jumper. now, i know there's nothing special or phenomenal about a jumper, but it's HOW he wore it that made my heart skip a beat! guys, you probably think i'm bonkers, he's married and he's blond but that doesn't mean i can't fantasize and build castles in the air :D i cannot possibly mention how gorgeous his torso looked. his noticeably Herculean biceps. meow. the colour complimented his skin tone perfectly. his overall appearance was breathtaking, as well as his outrageously devine self that he is in character and posture. i'm all over him like a rash. seriously, there is something wrong with me. oh well :)

yeah, so that would wrap up my week.
i am "goodish".