not much room to live

i had dreams that i would be a nurse when i grow up
funny how things change so fast
right now i dont know what i want to do with my life, who i want to become, who i want to be, with who, where and what for

and still i dont have enough room to live!
i think of so many things i would think i could do but i never end up doing them and i throw those thoughts away into to corner of the room, now that pile of reckless and unseemly ideas has turned into a mountain and is slowly blotting out the light. i get caught up in them, they lie at my feet and i get tangled every once and again. i sometimes wonder if i had chosen the right path, if this is the way i am to be traveling, did i make the right choices..?

it seems that happiness is just round the corner but i never turn round the right one.

maybe it will find me on another lonely street amidst the smell of summer just after the rain..