Sunday, April 13, 2008

this is not like home

i cried my eyes out watching p.s. i love you.. and then i decided i wanted to cry some more so i watched juno.. ended up going to bed a 4 am.
i know i cry for every reason, for every thing..but seriously those films were good..

sobbing to my pillow.
i asked myself why i'm so unhappy.
where is my home?
what does the future hold?

the only answers that came to my mind were: not here, not in this country, not now.. i deserve better, i deserve absolute devotion, adoration, i should be endeavoured.. i should be.. but i'm not.

i have a thing for irish men.
i want to find myself in ireland one day..
that would be magical.

[dreams...]

1 comment:

[the lavender thief] said...

that's another thing we have in common, i guess