school again tomorrow...

but no ordinary school - i'm going to nursery (3-4 year olds!! yikes!!) in stockton. yes, i got my placement up north and i'm staying with L. however, L is currently away and will be back on friday (oh my lord - i cannot WAIT, it's so weird being here without him)

so i start school tomorrow...with...babies really... :/ nursery scares me. maybe i will change my mind or gradually i will like the age range to teach, however, as of today, i'm kinda scared and not sure what to expect..will keep you posted.

been very good and gave back my aldo shoes *cries* i LOVED them :( over the knee boots i've never had.. should have bought a size bigger but who knew aldo was sporting such small sizes? boo. i got some black jeans from uniqlo though :) excited!

so it's february and you all know what special day is coming up :)? yes, that's right - Valentines day. now, i've never been the one to celebrate V day but with L things have certainly changed. i was reluctant to do ANYTHING for v day..i've just always had such crappy boyfriends that i saw no reason in 'spoiling' (or even 'treating' them) to anything! i was always the one running around, buying, buying buying and making things nice. and i guess no one ever bothered to really treat me during v day...so the whole romance was gone and never existed. so sad, but so very true. and now, i'm with someone who really wants me, a man who really loves me for who i am. HE treats ME. and boy am i one happy little girl. so this year, we are going out - to a lovely little pub in a beautiful village (which maybe, who knows, maybe one day, we'll end up living there..) where we'll enjoy a gorgeous meal. i even know what i'm getting L for v day - yes, i am getting him a present (or two!) i just can't believe i left my dress in london :( i want to cryyy!! ugh.

xoxo

on antibiotics

i've got an infection, hopefully i'll get rid of it soon enough, i'm on antibiotics so GO AWAY you stupid infection!!!!

i'm pretty much super duper excited about tomorrow - i'm leaaaavin' on a .. train. and i sure as heck know i'll be back again!

more purchases:
- aldo shoes (boots, over the knee type - need to try on size 7 for good measure tomorrow, so trip to covent garden again)
- clinique high impact mascara (my l'oreal million lashes is brilliant HOWEVER after being told by my science teacher that l'oreal workers have to wear special protective clothing when working with waterproof mascara from l'oreal, i've decided that i'm not going to get that crap again!)
- topshop tops (gorgeous scallop neck tops that are so summery - i love it!)

see...i've been good :)!

uni...hm...still two essays to go...haven't done too well with those ;)

can't wait till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo

yay (part trois)?!

yes, can you believe it....!! another batch of great news - i passed my professional studies assignment - phew!! i'd blissfully forgotten all about it actually..and yesterday we were told that we'd get our results today.

i must admit, getting (or rather waiting) for the results are incredibly stressful - i just have absolutely no idea whether i passed or failed...there is just no knowing.. :/

but i'm glad i passed. very glad indeed.

now..because of this wonderful news, i was meant to go out and exchange my jacket from zara. however, it was so cold today that once i got home - i stayed in! there was noo way i was going to head back outside...it was freezing in my room so i hopped straight onto my bed and covered myself with my lovely blanket and switched on my laptop and wasted away the evening. nice.

tomorrow i'm heading off to zara ;) in the morning. i'm considering giving the jacket back and getting a refund? i'm not sure, i'll see how the change of size goes. will pop in to a shoe maker and get my shoes re-heeled - i keep slipping, they are so bloody dangerous! and i'll head off to cambridge at 3pm. do not fear - i will be back sunday morning (after a bit of /window/ shopping at westfield ;))

have a lovely weekend all
xoxo

YAY (part deux)

so i retook my ICT skills test today and.... i passed!! hurrah!! so that's two down, one to go (the worst lies ahead of me though - maths...)

earlier this morning, i received a text from zara saying that my package is ready to be collected from the shop in covent garden (just a two minute walk from holborn - where the test centre was) so i happily went and got it.

i came home and unpacked it and...i'm not entirely happy with it :/ it's like it's a bit too small on me...i'm planning on going to zara tomorrow and changing it for a bigger size (L!!) or giving it back all together ;/

got a 'bright' top from h&m (a very orange, rusty, earthy colour) in size 14 so it's rather slouchy :D but nice. i like. it's the only really colourful item of clothing i have...wow. shall be flaunting it tomorrow at uni.

cannot wait till april when i will be (hopefully, fingers crossed) in poland! just waiting for confirmation from L's work to accept his holiday form. it's been too long since i was home.

i need to get on with my essays this weekend. i have planned to go to cambridge to see anna sing in her choir - they are giving a show in a church, should be impressive :) i will be back on sunday and next week i have the whole of wednesday off so i can catch up on some essay writing..i have two essays due in for 25th feb while i'm out of london so i'm going to try to write and hand them in on the friday..! yay...

i miss L and i've been totally deserted by 'friends' but for ania.
so, to whoever is reading this, thanks for stopping by and reading

xoxo

literacy skills test - PASS

woot woot! i passed my literacy skills test...only ICT and maths to go... thursday i have ICT and maths - hm...maybe in march? i'm so not prepared for it...

however..

because i succeeded in my test, i treated myself to a bit of oxford street lavishness... yes, i went to new look and got a pair of tights ;) haha.

(i do have a jacket, jeans and a scarf making its way to me via the wonderful post :p)

oops - naughty me! i said i wouldn't go shopping, but i just couldn't resist after such nice news!! i must admit i will be spending more on a bag that i've cast my eyes on in aldo..... maybe thursday when i pass my ICT :D?#

xoxo

another week over..

the weekend whizzed past like speedy gonzales.
more work done, but still a lot lies ahead..

i have my ict skills test tomorrow at 17:15 so fingers crossed!

on a brighter note - i purchased a lovely (faux) leather jacket from zara- i promise this is my last purchase from zara for a long long time!! :)

another week of uni ahead.. hopefully i'll get more work done during the week..

i cannot contain myself, i really cannot wait for february and my additional school experience! all the way up in stockton - yay!

L and I have also come to the conclusion that we will go to PL twice this year - april (for easter) and december (for chrimbo). i 'might' go in august too for a few days as it's my gran's 90th(!!) wow, i'm glad we've finally settled on some dates :D i can't wait! i miss home.

xoxo

a tad bit beauty obsessed at the mo...

it may not be so obvious to you all (particularly through this blog) that i am LOVING a multitude of beauty products and also a new obsession of mine are clothes and handbags..

i don't like to talk about it at al, as this blog is supposed to be about 'my life' and what is going on. however, recently i haven't been blogging AT ALL. oops.

i'm a student. i don't have a lot of money and i have been complaining that i don't have money to get a ticket to poland etc.. and so i feel really bad every time i get myself a new top/blouse/trousers/bag/cosmetics/bag/jewelery... :(

but i must admit, recently i've been obsessed.

i've been buying way too many clothes, my wardrobe is slightly overflowing! that's never happened before.
now, i did make a promise to myself that this year i will buy only good quality clothes (i.e. no more primark, no more tacky clothes that fall apart after being worn once). so i'v been buying waaay too much in the zara/topshop sale (and not-so-sale!) tragedy. luckily, i've come to a stop - i have satisfied my clothes shopping desire (hopefully!)

i've bought so many cosmetics - especially from clinique, bare minerals, urban decay (i've yet to get mac and nars ;)) and i've also gotten into painting my nails (something completely new to me). i've been going mad!! barry m, essie, gosh, rimmel, sally hansen (for strengthening), maybelline.. i'm all onto you!

anyway - enough of this babble.

life at uni is stressful. a lot of work to do, many essays to research and write.
february will be spent up north with L and at school doing my additional experience in nursery and year 1. should be fun. especially that L will be away for 2 weeks while i'm there :/

susan (my flattie) has got herself a leading role in an irish series (anf will be on tv in ireland) SOOO so happy for her :)

trying to sort out my holidays to poland - decision: should i go for easter and chrimbo OR summer hols and chrimbo?? need to check out tickets too..that's the worst part.

that's all folks! hope you're all well...
xoxo

another year over...

and what a year it has been...

jan - was in poland for dad's 70th
feb - had a lovely valentine's day for the first time in my life
march - bunked off school to go with L to his 'work do'
april - erm, nothing?
may - bday present in use at the track, which resulted in L's car to break down
june - last month of being an LSA
july/august - at L's, the best time ever
sept - started uni
oct - busy at uni
nov - amazing bday with L up north
dec - another wonderful chrimbo with the Holding's and an ever better new years in the cottage

all done and gone..it's amazing how fast a year flies now.. when i was younger, time used to go so slowly..things have certainly sped up since then!

2011.. i wonder what you will bring me..
hopefully i will successfully finish this pgce course

i have made some new years resolutions:
- buy clothes only at zara/topshop
- stop buying crappy stuff that is not quality
- same goes for makeup and skincare products
- keep on top of things (ie don't leave it till the last minute)

how are you all doing in this new year? any resolutions/plans? hope you're all well!

muchos love xxx

a *bit* behind...

well, centuries ago..

i moved house. i moved into a fresh new flat with two brand new housemates. they are fantastic. i could not have got better flatmates. it's great.

my room is not-so-great. i've tried to make it 'my own' by buying a few bits and bobs to make it look 'homely'. have i succeeded? you'd have to see it to judge yourself.

my first placement is abruptly coming to an end!! shock! it seems like it was just a few days ago that i started! what joy these last 5 weeks have been with my reception children (4-5 year olds) they have been such sweeties to teach. my teacher has been great although she hasn't made it easy for me, neither has she given me enough carpet time experience but i have thoroughly enjoyed every second of this placement! it's been a pleasure and i don't really want to go... i wish i could come back to reception in march/june.. yet i know that won't happen - i have to go to year1/year2.

i have managed to get my ASE in feb up in stockton - SCORE! a whole month with my man - how exciting :D

i cannot wait till friday...i will finally see Mr L. it has been much too long.. and christmas is nigh - wow, where has the time gone?! i still need to buy a few presents..

i wish i could go home for christmas... it would have been so lovely especially that anna is going and it's at my brother's so the whole family would have been together.. i will miss them all this year..i really was hoping that i would go this year... :( i miss my family.

roll on last week of school and my last observation and then friday...!!

xoxo

cheer up, everything will be ok...

i hate being stressed.
i hate writing essays.
i hate not having options.

this is the beauty of london - rely only on yourself, friends say they will 'help' but they never really do.

super stressed.
worried about everything.

'don't let yourself get pushed around'

i just want to do this damn course - why do i always have to have huge obstacles along the way?

argh!

i KNEW i'd forgotten something - my borrowed maths cd from the bloody library! and L's away till friday so i'll have a huge fine to pay!! grrr.

as for london, well, it greeted me with drizzle, slippery surfaces and a miserable empty room. that's a typical hello from london.

last week of proper uni and then 6 weeks of SE1! *cries* am i ready?!

not to mention i still need to write one whole essay...and finish off my other one, all for friday..

oh, and of course look for a new room.

THIS WEEK IS GOING TO BE SOOO MUCH FUN. not.

early birthday

friday night came upon us, and i thought our plans hadn't changed - go to L's uncle in osmotherly. L came home and announced that maybe we should go out for a meal and just hang out and have an early bday (seeing that we won't be together till xmas)..it sounded good to me! luckily, i thought ahead and i had done my hair up in lovely curls (which, no doubt, fell apart as the night lingered) put on my lil black dress and even changed my mahoo-sive h&m everyday bag, for my little black clutch :) how good am i?!

we set off at 6 pm.
my looooooord did we venture out into the wilderness and darkness of the night!

L drove us around and far out. we were driving through the prettiest towns, looking for a good restaurant - one that would be good enough for such a pompous occasion ;) by the time it got to 7pm i was feeling a little bit hungry. i was beginning to get onto L's back for taking me out for such a long drive and thinking he was doing it on purpose, driving for so long just to make me more hungry. but then, i kinda got a tiny bit suspicious when we drove past 'the dog' a second time.. now, L has a tendency to be very picky and will not stop or turn around, he will keep going till he gets to where he wants. so yes, we'd done a HUGE loop. i was laughing it off and listening to L's excuses.

and then we drove up to a lovely drive..and a few seconds later - there it was - a beautiful hall that looked like a small castle from the outside. i was in awe but knew this was going to be an expensive night.

the time of arrival was 7:45pm.
we went up to the restaurant area and were told that there are no available tables till 9:30pm. so we waited :)

a murphy's and a baileys later, we were in! our meals were served up really quickly and were delicious. i had some more baileys and, having drank so much on an empty stomach, was feeling pretty dizzy. it was home time by 10:30pm.

L was told by the receptionist that the quickest way to the car park was by going up to the second floor and going straight down the corridor and we'll get to a set of doors that lead to the outside. so off we went. and we walked down the corridors and i was searching for doors leading out when lo and behold, we were unfortunately approaching just some more hotel rooms..and then L said that he got a card from the reception .. and swiped it on the door and it opened... no, not to the car park ;) but to our very own room! i couldn't stop laughing at my gullibility and the fact that i had such a wonderful man do this for me.

in the room we were greeted by a glorious bottle of champagne and chocolates and a rather inviting humongous super-duper king sized bed!

i had such a wonderful birthday!

we had a late check out so we got home past 2pm.

oh, and L baked the most scrumptious bread in the afternoon, much inspired by antonio carluccio who was on saturday kitchen (yes, we watched it in bed this morning at the hotel, *snicker*) it was marvelous! with pancietta and cheese, yum!! could eat it every single day!

i love being home. with L.
i will miss him.
back to london tomorrow.
back to reality.
back to my room hunting and essays..

joy.

xoxo

p.s. wake me up when School Experience 1 ends...

not an easy life...

i'm 'enjoying' my half term week (which is actually a study week - i have two essays to hand in for next friday..) and i had an absolute BOMBshell thrown at me on monday...

i got a TEXT from my 'flattie' saying that the flat has been sold and we have to move out by 14th november. so the contract that i signed was a load of shit and i'm now looking for a place to stay..i spent monday and tuesday looking for rooms...with not much luck, so i'm trying to keep a clear mind and focus on my essays...i've done nearly all my literature one but i still have my maths to do which isn't easy :/

i just can't believe how fate has criss-crossed its paths with my luck..and turning it into BAD luck. instead of having time to focus on my essays i've had to waste time arguing with my 'flattie' i'm furious. i'm fuming. i'm beginning to hate london and all these false people that live in it. they only do things for their own profit, their own good.. i hate it. i'm beginning to see more and more of this behaviour in londoners, it's frightening.

i want to live here, up in the north. more than never have i felt this strongly to be here. not only because i miss L, but because of the life that one has here, it's so much calmer and peaceful. always something to do, always somewhere to go, someone to see, someone to cook for, someone to talk to..

so, as i try to write my eassay, and look for a place to live, i'm trying to actually really enjoy my last 3 days here with L. carving my pumpkin tonight! and tomorrow out to osmotherly and saturday we're celebrating my early birthday (we won't be able to be together for it so we thought we'd celebrate now) in fact i won't be seeing L till 17th december :( boohoo...

happy days to you all and fingers crossed for my essays and room-hunting...
xoxo

not feeling so well..

i was having a brilliant day, i was so happy the week was coming to an end.. especially after being so frustrated what with the whole placement mess up by uni.. and after uni today, i was meant to go out and have a drink with my old work mates from school.. but my belly made up its mind to have a go at me today and so i stayed at home. i watched the whole of gossip girl with a cuppa tea in hand and under my duvet. such good times, eh?

i bought my ticket for stockton - so excited. but won't get to see L till saturday as he's working nights during the week and my train gets into town at 9pm.

got lots of work this weekend, have to start on my english essay, would like to get it done and out of the way so i can concentrate on my maths essay (which i can;t get my head round :/) i just can;t wait to be with L and his family. we've also decided that we;ll celebrate my bday next week as we won't see each other in november.. in fact, i won't see L till december 20th.. this is such a dreadful year when it comes to how often we get to see each other.. but hopefully, it'll all be worth it.

hope you're all good xoxo

you know you love me...xoxo

i've found my website - one that shows gossip girl YAY!! sooo happy now, just watched 3 episodes of season 3 - sooo need to catch up, season 4 is already out here..only 19 more to go..

i got really soppy today, i miss L so much and i had to voice it to him. it's hard, so hard because there's nothing really that we can do.. :( one more week and i'll see him for a week, and then i'm back here for 7 weeks and then i'll see him for two weeks during xmas.. i can't believe we have to be apart for so long. i officially hate it.

on another note..i'm not doing too well financially. i'm trying to manage and i think i will but it's not easy..i need to get my maintenance grant or else i'm screwed. not looking good. i hate being a student. in london.

hope you're all well
xoxo

effects of alcohol can be terrible

in my case, it puts me to sleep, i slept most of the evening (from about 6 till 9) and now it's 4 and i'm going to bed with the hope of getting up at 9... drinking messed up my sleep cycle :(!! children - don't drink! unless you've nothing to do the next day...

xoxo

in love with

nigella lawson and her new show 'kitchen'
she really is one super sexy woman. who can cook!

she's got so many inspirational recipes it's amazing :) makes me want to cook.

if you haven't already - go have a look at my other blog www.mariatodayisaw.blogspot.com and you can see a snippet of what i see everyday ;)

this weekend looks like i'll be drenched and showered under by books, journals and more literature - so much work to do for my essays!! blaaaaaaaaaaa.

wish i could go shopping, or even more - wish i could go to the hairdressers. i've finally found my salon, my picture perfect salon (www.hobsalons.com) in camden (so close to home!) i wish to have a lovely fringe...a side swept one, for now :) ... i'll dream on then, shall i? heh.

sleep time now, hope everyone is good xoxo

surprise visit

Mr L called me on Sunday morning announcing that he'd come back from his training - YAY!! and he also said he was coming down to see me - double YAY :D

ok, so it would've been a wonderful two days - if it wasn't for his car. he broke down just a few roads down from me, so we had to get call for recovery which took hours to come, we later headed for a well deserved pizza and went to bed. next morning L got up bright and early and made so many phone calls to mechanics that would fix his car. he ended up spending a gigantic sum of money but luckily they did his car up by the end of the day! if it wasn;t for the tube strike it would've been easy to get to... we were late 10 mins.. but the man was kind enough to wait for us! how lucky were we!?

and so my man left this morning at 7am and managed to make it to the barracks on time.

i've now got a fridge full of healthy food, i had an amazing lunch (sponsored by L) and and empty bed :(

plus, a surplus of work to do for uni...

xoxo

lack of afflatus

i sit here and ponder on what i should write..

there have been a few things on my mind today, nothing that is vitally important to put out into the world, but i'll do it anyway..

1. i bought a "shelving unit" from ARGOS - note to self - never do that (or buy any other item from there) again.

2. i'm going to IKEA tomorrow with my flatmate to get me a proper shelving unit. it'll take us a min of 1hr to get there but it will be worth it..right?

3. Anna will be staying over for 5 nights starting tomorrow - i need to clean my room!! pronto!

4. i despise this rain that has befallen upon london - make it go away.

5. if i could change my whole wardrobe - I WOULD.

6. i wish the weekends were longer - i hardly ever get to do half the stuff i want to.

7. there's something wrong with the ventilation in my room - EVERY morning i wake up and the windows from the inside are covered with water droplets (i'm assuming this is condensation) meaning that there's too much water in the air.. make it go away! it's so annoying and my clothes never dry :/

8. i've started a new blog.. it's called "Today i saw..." :)

9. i need to watch my expenses - i'm running out of money (fast..)...

10. i need to find a website that streams gossip girl - man am i missing that show!! i have to catch up on all of season 3...!!

i thought i'd limit myself to 10, once i start listing i add and add and add ;) uni is getting quite scary - i mean, the prospect of being in school in a month is terrifying!! it's s different to what i was taught to do in PL.. wish me luck from 8th nov..

xoxo

i don't understand...

how (heavily) pregnant women smoke. i just don't get it...is carrying a child inside of you not a good enough reason to STOP smoking? not doing just for yourself but for the health of your unborn baby? it appalls me this selfishness and stupidity of some women. shame on you!

my week's flown by (yet again).. i have no idea where all this time is passing by?! i'm so busy with uni i tend to go to bed between 1 and 2am..i'm shattered. so tonight, i'm hopping into bed straight after this! the earliest i've ever been since i left L's!!

talking of Mr L.. i keep wondering where he is, what he's doing, if he's happy, if he's tired, if he misses me...
i can't wait till he gets back.
i also guess this is some kind of 'taster' for what it will be like when he leaves for Afghan.. which i am actually dreading. look at me now - i'm lucky he's gone for only a week..what will i do when he'll be gone for 6 months? i don't even want to think about it...

i want to go to poland. i miss my parents and my friends. i wish i could have had more time i went during the summer to see you... :(

xoxo